2020 Vision

Happy New Year! Wishing us all a new kind of 20/20 vision—an awakened vision that is broad and deep. May we begin to see and sense ourselves–every part of ourselves, even the wounded and raging parts—as part a greater whole.

Recently, in my local meditation circle, we have been talking about difficult things, including racism and antisemitism and the rise of hate crimes against all people who are deemed “other.” Awakening, it turns out, includes seeing and feeling such things.

“I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hate so stubbornly is because they sense once hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain,” wrote James Baldwin.

Awakening means opening our hearts to our own pain. We can start small, sitting quietly at a quiet time of day or in a quiet place. We can practice saying “forgiven” like a mantra or prayer when difficult feelings or memories arise. We will do this together the next time we sit. We can do this when any kind of difficult feeling comes up: a memory, a gripping tension, a rush of anxiety, that uneasy sense that we are puppets dancing on the strings of our conditioning. For a moment or two we can emerge into a finer presence.

Throughout the ages, people have called this greater presence God. But you don’t need to worry about whether or not there is a God. We just need to practice accepting our own humanity for a second or two. One moment at a time, we can practice opening to our life, just that. This act of opening does not depend on belief or views of any kind. Just be still for a little bit.

Instead of just being a little virtual reality machine, our brain may also be a receiver capable of tuning into a finer awareness. When we unplug and sit down quietly or go out into nature, the receiver capacity of the brain has a chance to open to this greater awareness, this greater presence. We realize that we have a sensitivity that is greater than our pain and anger. The root of the word “forgive” means to give or grant or allow. This year why not resolve to give yourself the gift of this attention, even for a moment. We may experience what it is like to be accepted and forgiven. Not in words. By something finer and more sensitive and alive.

Comments

  1. Thank you Tracy!

    Happy New Year. Yes – 20/20 vision so we can all see clearly this year. I went into the city last night and sat at the Insight Meditation Center on 27th.

    I missed you and our sangha so much. Took everything to keep my judgment tucked away and just be with all that was coming up. ( annoyance )

    However – at 11:40.. we all wrote intentions for the year. There was a chant .. and everyone put the intentions in a huge singing bowl. We got to strike it as we set our intention. This part I enjoyed totally.! ( and I made the 12:41 train back thank goodness )

    So – I had the chant in my head with and over track of laughter.. 2019 went out with thinking… last 3 hours summed up 2019.. .. too much judgement – glad it’s over – leaving 😊 happy.

    See you tomorrow. Hoping you were surrounded by love and laughter as you brought in this new decade… of seeing things as they are !!! LOVE this 20/20 thing.. every day a reminder to just see for what it is.. not get caught up in the story- love it!

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  2. to be open to our own little atrocities – the nasty word, the insensitive sarcastic jibe, the inner agonies of not being understood – forgive it all. Open and relax – it’s okay to be human. I hear you, Tracy and thank you for sending this message. May you be surrounded by those who are willing to do the work, wherever they may be throughout the world. – Judih, Kibbutz Nir Oz, Israel

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  3. My thoughts this morning before I read your words were of a similar nature. I consider the synchronicity, and am reminded the human connection is powerful.

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